I’m going to _ _ _ _ _ .

by Kristin Morrison on December 4, 2009

in Adventure,India,Listening for Guidance,Making a Choice,Saying Yes

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Since I made the decision to go to Bali I’ve been feeling mostly peaceful.

But…

I’ve also been feeling India tugging at me. And more specifically, that particular retreat center in India has been tugging at me. The retreat center where they have all those amazing workshops that I wanted to do.

It’s weird

If India were a child she would be pulling at me to get my attention. Pulling me ever so slightly at first but in the past couple of weeks she has been more insistent.

To the point of being annoying.

“Go away,” I’ve been saying under my breath and in my head. To India.

Go away, India. Leave me alone. You are too: dirty, poverty-stricken, strange, scary. I don’t want to visit you on this trip. I can always visit you in 2011 when I do my next trip. Not this trip. Go away.

And her response?

tug. tug. Tug. Tug. Tug. TUG.

I didn’t tell anyone about this. I felt like my friends (you) were probably sick and tired of hearing me talk about whether or not to go to India. Hell, I’m tired of that conversation too. And I’d already decided that India wasn’t where I really wanted to go.

Besides, if I do decide to go to India while I’m in Bali I can just hop on a plane and go to India, right?

Well, not exactly.

There is this thing called a visa and India requires one. And it takes awhile to get a visa for India. Sometimes weeks.

I wasn’t thinking about visas, much less thinking about India when I went to Kimberly’s parents house in Austin, Texas for Thanksgiving last week.

I was thinking about turkey.

Kimberly had invited her friend Raje for dinner and after a few minutes of getting-to-know-you chatting with Raje I found out that she had lived at the retreat center in India. The same retreat center that had been tug-tug-tugging at me these past few weeks.

Raje raved about this retreat center. About the gardens. The pool. The morning meditations. The wonderful, wonderful people who are drawn to this special spot. The incredible mind-blowing workshops.

As I was listening to Raje talk I felt this whoosh of energy go through my body. I don’t want to sound too w00-woo but I did feel something. It was similar to the feeling I felt way back in July when Peter told me about this retreat center for the first time.

Suddenly I got utter clarity about the trip.

I felt (and feel) the rightness of Bali first. Rest. Relaxation. Flower Baths. Massage. Rice Fields. Gorgeousness.

Then India. And right now I’m not picturing myself exploring much of India except for this particular retreat center in India.

So like Goldilocks I went from

just India = not right

India then Bali = not right

just Baliย  =ย  close but not quite right

Bali then India = just right

And because I know in advance that I’m going to India I’ll have plenty of time to get my visa.

When I told Kimberly I was going to India she said, “I’m glad because I feel like there are people at that retreat center that you are supposed to meet. And when you decided not to go to India I felt sad because you wouldn’t meet those people. I didn’t say anything because I wanted you to decide on your own but yay! I’m glad you are going.”

I am too.

{ 3 comments… read them below or add one }

Gulshan December 6, 2009 at 12:58 pm

Hi,

Its always feeling great to read your thoughts in blog and I feel very good that you will be our guest in few months.

Where you decided to travel in india?? Just let me know so we will have some good time ๐Ÿ™‚ I wish you will land near mumbai and you are most welcome in our town and stay with my family for couple of days ๐Ÿ™‚

good luck,
Gulshan

Kristin December 6, 2009 at 2:51 pm

Thanks Gulshan! I will be arriving in Mumbai in February so perhaps I will finally get to meet you and your family. That would be great.

Thank you so much for all the great design work you have done for me these past couple of years. You have created beautiful product images for my website. ๐Ÿ™‚

I appreciate you Gulshan!
Kristin

ellie December 13, 2009 at 6:07 pm

hi kristin,
just read your blog-i am not a blog reader however after receiving
your email-i couldn’t help myself!
India retreat-you go girl! A great time in life for travel
and India -like a mother- the spiritual mother-calling
your heart home. FUnny thing-my family-different times and
different relatives are going to INdia in Dec and then
my niece and her family in Feb.
Auntie Ellie will go another time

Ellie

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