The Big Fat YES

Wow. Today I woke up feeling into going on my trip and you know what? I could really picture going. But more importantly I could feel it.

I’m imagining myself in India-taking these classes that I find I’m drawn to: painting as self expression, power of breath, primal deconditioning. (What the heck is primal deconditioning? There’s not a course description on the website about that particular class and I’m noticing I’m curious and drawn to that class title.)

I’m also imagining myself in luxurious Bali. Getting massages. Eating delicious food. Staying in beautiful rooms with ornate carved doors and bath tubs that are halfway outside so when I’m taking a bath I can let the mid-day rain cool down the bath water.

I noticed that now, when I feel into being in India, I’m now feeling peaceful. What a difference after my initial freak-out when I bought my ticket to India a couple of weeks ago! And I’m also am very aware that I can go to Bali as soon as I want if I really don’t like India.

Yesterday was the day that I started to feel the fear being replaced by a YES and I wrote an email to Sharon letting her know that I was leaning into the yes but not yet fully there yet.

I wrote:

Sharon, I woke up feeling like I can do 2 months -feels lighter and more do-able than 3 months- and India and Bali are beginning to feel right but I want further inner guidance. I will wait to make any plane ticket changes so I don’t have to keep paying the $100 change ticket fee!

I’m not quite at the Big Fat YES but I’m getting close.